Nil Na La

I find myself in a very Irish mood today. lol I don't know what it is, but I feel lighter than usual, and I've got Solas tuning in my ears at the moment. Funny thing though, I'm in all black. I apparently "look like death's girlfriend". Thanks for that, Zach. ;)

My current goals for myself I find cover a vast spectrum, from language, to film, to clothing, to spiritual. I'm trying to learn Irish, been trying for many years, while at the same time studying French as well. I'd like my kids at least to be fluently multilingual, and I know being even partially so myself will increase the chances of reaching that goal. I'm also learning again to play the guitar, thanks to Kenji, tho so far all I've managed to do is slice my finger on the high string. *sigh* I am a terminal clutz...

On another note though, been going through Disciplines of a Godly Woman, which was originally a part of my growth plan to come back here to the Honor Academy. Feeling the need for a refresher course, if you will. I feel like I need to change quite a few things in my life, both spiritually, mentally, and physically. Good news in that last department: I've lost 15 lbs in the last couple weeks and I'm actually starting to see it in my face at least. So there's good news!

There are a lot more things I want/need to change, and I know, really, only God can really help me with that. I'm a frail human, susceptible to my own failings, and prone to wander. But my heart at least is seeking for integrity and honor, even if it has to drag the rest of me with it. So for now, I keep seeking. I keep hoping.

One last thing, if you're reading this, and you feel hurt by me in the last several weeks, whether seeemingly intentional or not, please know I am truly, deeply sorry. I am trying to become a better person, both for you, myself, and everyone else. My true heart never intends to hurt people, but again, I'm finding there is much growing that I need to do, and for you, I will.

Love always,
~Char